What do I think of myself? What do you think of me? Well, what I think of myself is truly non-existent nowadays. There’s constantly an ego-mind and a conscious mind at play whenever I find myself thinking anything. I guess this has developed prominently after years of yoga practice. The moment I become self-aware of…
Author: rajendranidutta
My journey worth writing a book
On my flight to Goa. A literal blank state of mind. Two seats empty beside me, a perfect situation to relax and type in a few words. Let me excavate some thoughts from deep within. 2019, the yoga school that appeared as a serendipity, was my first centre of training. Not a single person to…
Whole
If I throw away every little belonging I have, what will remain? Me. A me, that was always whole. Sometimes broken yet filled with hope. Sometimes whole with cracks of hurt.
Lagging behind
Patches of sunlight sewn all over his face, he looked at me with greeting eyes. It’s been years. I feel, a lot of it has been left behind. As if, I live in a different world. He in another. We talk. But we talk of another lifetime. A piece of us scattered among the tiled…
How practice transforms?
The simple act of rolling out your mat and standing on it, is the sole habit that you need to build. The rest follows on its own. Once the limbs start moving to accustomed counts, you are set to flow. Ashtanga builds itself upon you. Each body responds differently to it. Some will find it…
In need of an expression
Days piled up on days like layers of pancake. The sky changing colour with seasons. Murky greys to bright blues. The warmth of oranges and reds and yellows. Sometimes purple too. I have spent almost an year with a friend, absorbing his vibes. Loads of unexplained whims, unlabelled equations and undefined feelings. Sometimes it feels…
Acceptance
Almost gave up today! By the end of the 7am class, I had blurry eyes. 7am, 8am- in both the sessions, I was half present, counting 1 to 10 for each pose mechanically. Almost felt like running away!! ‘But this is your job, you have to hold yourself together for 3 more hours. Don’t make…
Today
“Say not, ‘I have found the truth’, but rather, ‘I have found a truth.’ ” – Khalil Gibran Today, I found out a truth. Today, I didn’t smile much. Today, I wanted everything to be like yesterday. ———————————– I lost balance in a pose. And while I was failing, a voice was uttering within. ‘Please…
7 missed calls
1:00am. 7 missed calls. I saw it happening. The night sky almost made it impossible for me to rationalize. But wait! I shouldn’t be messing him up. I let the phone ring till it stopped. . . A peek into the past– At the studio door, when I was losing the battle…unable to take sides…
Simple Living: For the goodness of it
‘Finding solace in being simple’- the only resolution that seemed sensible to make for the new year. On 31st December, I decided to go for a haircut 💇. ‘U-cut please’ , I said to the lady in the parlour. What was boring for the past twenty years, became the wisest choice now. I put on…
Miss. Totally OUT 